i used to have a sideblog for writing that i mostly posted on during freshman and sophomore year, so like 2 1/2-3 years ago. i was going through a really hard time back then but just now, when i revisited my old writing blog, i started to feel really touched that i was able to make these little creations, even if they were sometimes spurred by very bad feelings.
i don't know if i should classify this as poetry or experi//mental writing or what.. all i know is this is the only form of poetry ive ever been able to write. i remember being inspired by this experimental film class i took in spring of freshman year, and learning about the situationists and reading w.g. sebald, among other things. i had all this pent-up creative energy and difficult emotions i wanted to work through, so i started free-writing every night (or as often as i remembered to) in a pages document, mostly associations and little phrases, placing words together, and then i'd go back and collect everything into a "poem". it was incredibly soothing for me at the time.
for some reason i feel like i can never go back to writing like this, maybe because i don't feel like i am the same person as i was when i wrote these things, if that makes sense. but on the other hand i think i want to try writing again. i mean, i've been writing all this time, writing lots of different things in different styles, but i'd like to try this out again.. and maybe i'll post it on this blog, maybe i won't.
here are some pieces that i liked..
the last one was the first collection poem i ever wrote, inspired by my lit hum class lol. i remember we were reading the aeneid and i got so fed up with everyone and everything! thinking back on it, i find it quite funny.
anyways i hope everything is well.. i might still make those life posts but idk, i always seem to lose the drive to make posts as i'm halfway through typing them out. right now i'm just trying to deal with everything as best as i can. i believe in me!
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